I am 26
26 years and 1 day ago, I was born.
Days till my birthday and today, people kept asking me, “what are you doing?” My general answer was, “nothing.” For most people, this day is about stuffing your face and drinking and being surrounded by people you love and just have the best day of your life. I mean, it is the day you were born; what’s not to celebrate such an awesome person?
I went on a date not too long ago, and we discussed about life. One of the topics was birthdays. He told me that on his birthday, he likes to be alone, travel alone, be secluded; even hinting that he wanted to go somewhere desert like this year. I thought it was bizarre at first until he told me the reasoning behind it. Not that his reasoning was anything elaborate; life however, has taught us that on birthdays, be surrounded by people you love and celebrate your life. The thought behind a secluded birthday was to think about life: reflect, evaluate, and plan. Isn’t that what New Years is for?
I understood and accepted his point of view but still thought it weird. That is…until today. Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for all the invitations to want to celebrate and all the willingness to make my day wonderful; but I kinda just wanted to be alone. I had half ass planned things here and there up until the day of my bday. Lo and behold, as the day came closer or the morning of, things failed, plans were dropped, mood was lowered, etc etc. And no, I was not throwing myself a pity party. In my attempts to cheer myself up and make my own day special, I just thought about life and reflect on things.
-Where I’m going with my life?
-How would I rate my life currently on a scale 1-10?
-Rate my overall happiness on a scale 1-10
-Am I happy with the people in my life?
-I’m single, am I okay with that? Am I ready for a relationship? And is anyone out there ready to handle me? And if no one is handling this, should I fix something I am doing?
-Am I making the most of my life?
…so on and so on.
Though happy with life overall, answering some of those questions did make a tad sad and especially not want to be around people. So I found myself doing my own reflection just like my date had said he did.
Anyways, the point is, there is no point. lol. Celebrate your birthday how you choose. Don’t forget to reflect on life. I just wanted to write so I wrote this post.
and it’s post 1201.