The simple complicated things.

8 May 2012
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Horoscopes.

I normally don’t follow horoscopes; if it is there, I’ll read them. Today just felt like I need guidance/if my stars were aligning kind of day. So I hop onto Yahoo Horoscopes and what do you know, so on point.

May 8, 2012
Capricorn

A difficult situation will improve if you persevere. So keep talking and keep going!

I know I’m probably making it a bigger deal than it really is. But Monday had me on this emotional ish roller coaster of self/moral/life conflicts which semi-bled into my Tuesday. So like it says, I just gotta persevere through. Which I did today, and just did me.

Weekly Love (This Week)
Capricorn

Sure, you deserve all sorts of goodness — but early Monday might not be the right time to ask for it! Play it safe until Monday afternoon. From then until Wednesday, you’re in a better position to make plans and requests, and others will be all too glad to help out. On Thursday and Friday, you might momentarily doubt your ability to get things done, but don’t — you just need to persevere and keep your eyes on the proverbial prize (even if it’s that hot date you’ve been hoping for). This weekend, there’s nothing you can’t do. Enjoy your seemingly endless energy.

And as for my weekly love/”love” horoscope, it seems to be right too. Monday was all sorts of mess to make plans. And it was much easier today to make a plan. Let’s hope the rest of the week goes as fortold by the stars. Minus the doubt I’m supposed to have Thursday/Friday.

1 May 2012
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Careers

As most of my readers know, I’m still in the process of trying to find myself, find a job, find a career, one that I can see myself happy in.

There are people in this world who just work to make that money and can settle for that job that pays the bills. There are those who search for that career that make them happy and feel life fulfilled. I’m the latter.

My family however, is more of the first type of people. Granted, they want me to follow my dreams. I’m young, I still can. BUT how come when I tell them I got an internship interview or a job interview, their first reaction besides the occasional “Congrats” is, “how much does it pay?”

Which is fine, because bills are to be paid and people need to grow up. But I didn’t spend X amount of my life in school just to be bogged down by some job I’m not happy with or I dont learn from. I would like to learn, grow, experience. I want to be able to see the world in a different light, I want to be able to say I tried and I looked for my passion instead of 30 years down the rode and have that switch click on. I don’t know where I’ll go or if my passion and career collides; but boy, do I want to find out if they do.

Not that I want to prove my family wrong, but I want to be able to set that example, that it is possible to find a job that you enjoy and pay the bills.

Cheers.

1 May 2012
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Dating and Expectations

In my process of dating, I think I have these ideas of what I want in a guy. One being a driven individual/successful. And though as simple as that concept may be, I feel bad to expect such.

Why do I feel bad? Cause I’m not as successful and driven as I want/should be. I feel bad for holding these guys accountable and I’m not where I want to be/know where I want to be. Not to say that I’m not trying, I do want to be successful and find my passion in life. I just haven’t found it.

So is it wrong to want a guy that is driven and successful(whatever that may be to him), even though I haven’t found those things myself?

22 Mar 2012
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Life

It just feels like one of those nights. I’m not happy and but I’m not super depressed.

My life has been fun but now that I need to grow up, fun isn’t something I want to do as much without feeling bad. Today, my aunt called a entire family meeting to discuss something.

Though the issue is an issue, it is nice to see my family band together and try to help out. There wasn’t any arguments or objections; just, what are our next steps. And that’s what I love about my family. That we are a legit family, we don’t really argue, non dysfunctional, and nothing but love and support. but it also made me sad that because of where I am in my life, I can’t contribute as much as I should/want to.

And so, after this bittersweet family meeting am I feeling like this? Probably because of loneliness. And it makes me upset that I can’t get over my selfish feelings. And then i get more upset. But with the loneliness, it is more so that I don’t have anyone(in terms of

8 Feb 2012
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LIFE UPDATE

I don’t remember the last time I updated you guys on my life. But when I talk to anyone who hasn’t talked to me in a while or if someone just ask me how life is, I tell them.

I recently graduated, finished my year long internship, turned 25, and came out to my ENTIRE family.

That was my December/January.

My life is pretty good for the most part, I can’t really complain.

Tonight, I’m going to New Orleans with one of my BFFs, my sister and one of her BFFs. Maybe Disney end of February with undecided still. Maybe Texas in March with my Grandma. Followed by one of my BFF’s Big Gay Birthday Roadtrip down to SoCal with all the gays in the bay. I also have a retreat in March in Sonoma. That’s my life in an upcoming nutshell.

My love life is not bad, but it’s not good. I’ve gone on dates here and there. One person I’m actually interested in, who doesn’t seems like anyone else I’ve ever dated. Though I’m unsure how he feels about me. But only time can tell.

Now that I’m out, it does feel really good. To not feel like I have to hide such a big part of my life. Even discussing gay topics with some of my relatives feels nice, cause they actually put forth an effort to care. My one aunt even emailed about the news of Prop 8 recently, and though I thought she was doing a tad much, it still made my heart smile for her to care so much.

Career wise, I have no clue what I’m doing. And enjoying life doesn’t really give me inspiration. It makes me lazy. But after February, I will start buckling down and really search for what the world has to offer me.

Health. Has been an issue with my family. People whom I never expected has acquired things here and there. And it freaks me out because, duh, GENETICS. So now that I’m not working or school, I have no more excuses.

But my life is great, and I’m thankful of where life has taken me so far.

11 Jan 2012
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Little Things In Life #1

Preface:
If you don’t know already, I’m a really big family guy. My family has been close since forever. Even till this day.

On days when I’m off, not working and no school, my family has random outings to lunch/shopping/flea market/whatever.

The little thing:
Today was just one of those days. My aunt invited my dad and I over for a little lunch. And as the lunch was done, everyone was away from the table doing their own thing. I had a little life slow motion montage of appreciation of my life moment. My dad sharpening knives for my aunt, my aunt playing with her new grandson, my grandma drinking her pills and me just watching everyone at the table. I just sat back, self reflected, and smiled.

Little things in life such as having lunch with my family, makes me love my life.

23 Dec 2011
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Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

I wonder that all the time.

Well, for one, I’m a 6’1, big boned, hairy, 3/4 Vietnamese and 1/4 Pilipino. And gay.

Not many of those around.

I think I’m very me for the most part. I stick to my guns of who I am. I’m not saying I’m something unique and I stand out, but I have TJ ish quality about myself.

For example: When I was in my DUI discussion group, we talked about alternatives to drinkings and keeping up with your social life. And I brought up how I love coffee shops and board games. And my motives for doing such. And the moderator said how that was the first time he has ever heard that in all his career as a discussion group moderator. That made me smile and help validate myself that in no matter what capacity, I stay true to me.

Granted, who doesn’t love board games and coffee shops. And if they don’t, they just haven’t found the wonder in it.

I don’t know what makes me uniquely me, but if you ever met me. You’d understand the TJness that resonates off me. I’ll stay with you forever.

22 Dec 2011
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Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

My family. Plain and Simple. Mom’s side and dad’s side

22 Dec 2011
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Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/ being with in the future

So what my ideal boyfriends —-> husband would be like.

A male.
Vietnamese but Pilipino would work too. Asian.
2 years within my age
5’11”
Get’s along with my family. I wouldn’t have to worry about him during my family party. Travels well with us. Can roll with the jokes. Flea market, most Sundays.
Loves to eat. Not scared to try new food. Eats family style with most food. Not picky.
Can/will pick up the bill every so often.
Likes video games, board games, especially scattergories.
Likes to party/partE. Knows self control when it comes to it. Can drive me home on nights I’m too drunk, and I’ll do the same of course. pretty much, dont be a hot mess. Only on bdays and special occasions.
Gets approval from my BFFs. And gets along with them. Good luck.
Gets along with my friends in general. Able to compliment my group of friends. Hopefully i can do the same in return.
Close with their family.
Cooks for me.
Surprise me with random gifts, or notes, or meals etc.
Able to massage me when I need one.
$$$/job/car
Stylish
We have similar music taste but slightly different.
Have a cute nickname for me.
Fancy with a sense of frugal
Likes to stay home and cuddle.
Doesn’t make me wait around
Low-maintenance but high when need to be.
Educated. Driven.
Compliments my life style

and of course, makes me smile.

22 Dec 2011
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Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

TJ - The most common nickname of mine. It comes from my name
Tamerlane Vuong Sanchez Jr
Variations - Teej

Cu - It’s my Viet nickname. Yes I know what it means. It’s common for the first born boy of the family to have that nickname. also variations - Anh Cu - Cu-ers

Variation of Tamerlane I have been called.
Tame - Tam - Tamer

Em - My sister calls me that. And Uncle Poo - Uncle Poops - Emmy

19 Dec 2011
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Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Are plans, dreams and goals different? or are they the same? For the sake of this post, they will be the same/very similar.

Find a job/career - one that pertains to my degree/one that I enjoy and can see myself making a career out of it.
Lose weight - Though I am comfortable in my own skin, I’d still like to lose weight. My current goal is 220. I’d be happy with 210.
Move out of the bay for X amount of time period. Not sure how long, not sure where. But one day, hopefully soon. BUT best believe I will come back.
Find bf -> that turns into a husband -> where we will live happily together -> with a kid or 2
Sewing more. I’d like to work on my craft more. I enjoy sewing and arts and crafts. I would like to cultivate that.
Be more financially stable/dependent

that’s a good reasonable list for now. Some short term some long term.

Any ideas of what to add to my list?

15 Dec 2011
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Oh look, I’m a graduate :3

14 Dec 2011
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People leaving

I sometimes wonder, why people leave your lives.

I personally, don’t go through cycles of friends that often. If anything, they are still there and I just don’t hang out with them as much. But never really, I just stop seeing them.

As a spectator of seeing certain peoples lives. I notice that their friend/groups of friends are often constantly changing. Which isn’t necessarily a bad thing. But for reasons that I observe, I can tell it’s because of what they do/say/etc.

So then I wonder, are these cycles of friends happening because they aren’t that compatible of friends in the first place, or is it because of that one person. And if it is because of that one person with their attitude which isn’t so bad, will they ever change? or do they even know that the way they act/talk/etc, is potentially the reason why they can never hold onto their friends?

IDK if that made any sense.

14 Dec 2011
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Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

I always hated this question. I mean, my life isnt the best but it isn’t the worst. And I don’t really see myself wanting to switch it with someone else.

Maybe Ellen Degeneres? lol. She seems so fun and loving and surrounds herself with good people. She is rich and can technically spend on whatever she wants. She sets out a good example

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Either my post are getting lamer and lamer, the topics are getting lamer and lamer, or I’m just not as into it as much as I was.

14 Dec 2011
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Day 16- Another picture of yourself

I know you guys are probably tired of seeing my stupid face. But here is one of me from 3-4 years ago. When I worked as a Bellhop at the Tower of Terror in Disney World Hollywood Studios =D